Spring is happening, and I'm taking a break from myself

Life is harder than ever, I've never dealt with so many hormones in my life, and I'm having a bit of an anxiety problem. The Lord is good and I'm in his hands. Being a Mom is the most selfless thing I've ever experienced. There is not much room for selfishness. Nothing apart from Christ has changed my life more than having a baby; not marriage, nor moving, nor job changes. Elijah is now 7 months old and I've spent the past 7 months going back and forth between trying to feel like my old self, or giving up on that and just figuring out my new self as a mom. I realized though that I was spending entirely too much time thinking about myself instead of just doing. Sometimes you have to turn the part of your brain that thinks about yourself off for a while and only think about  serving the Lord and others, namely my family. It's very hard to do and I suddenly switch my thoughts back to myself and I have to remind my self that I'm not doing that for a while. Wasn't it CS Lewis that said that "being humble isn't thinking less of yourself but thinking of yourself less." I'm ready for that.

So I'll stop writing about myself and move on to a much more interesting topic, baby Elijah!
He has grown so much since my last post. He is such a big boy, he is eating solid food! Eli loves to razz with his lips. He makes cute little baby noises and is the smiliest baby. He loves to stand now while you hold his hands. He loves plastic shape blocks, but even more, the container they come in. He loves drinking water in a sippy cup or from mommy's straw and banging hard toys on hard surfaces. He loves for mommy to sing "little bitty pretty one" His mode of transportation is rolling around. He has the brightest eyes and the sweetest smile I've ever seen. I never want this time to end but it is all so fun watching him grow. He is such a glorious blessing. I love waking up and hearing the sweet noises of him playing in his crib. I know when I go to his room I will get the biggest smile! Early morning nursing is my favorite. I usually put him on the floor to play while I drink my coffee and read the word. After that I put him in his highchair to eat a big-boy breakfast, he is very vocal if he is enjoying it, "unumnumnum," he says :). I'll put him down for a nap knowing that when he wakes up I will get another big smile. I love playing peek-a-boo with him and doing anything to hear his amazing laugh. He absolutely loves his bath time, and I love giving him baths! He is an incredible blessing and I never want to forget this time.I fall more and more in love with him everyday. We've even started discussing baby #2!

We've been working to get our soil ready to plant our garden. We also have gotten all of our seedlings started. I'm so excited to get everything started so we can have a bountiful harvest this summer! I can't wait to make baby food from fresh veggies!! :)